[it does matter, because nam soon really has no idea why he'd be getting so angry about spam. things have definitely been weird and uncomfortable between them since the blackout—he knows exactly why that is...
...and he's quick to avoid the subject too, because he still isn't really sure what he makes of it. the air between them has been uncomfortable ever since, but this? well, it's uncharacteristically angry, even for heung soo. he isn't sure he wants to deal with it.
or maybe he just doesn't know how to. the truth is that the tension that remains is scary to him... he feels as if he's walking on eggshells and that things have become so fragile that whatever remained of their newly rekindled friendship could shatter in an instant. that? somehow, that's scarier than anything else they've been through up to this point. what happened... it's not easy to forget, not for either of them and it puts them in such a precarious position that he just feels himself shutting down every time he has to think about it. ...it's easier not to.
which is exactly why he's taken to sleeping even more; just when he'd started to get into a habit of doing so less as a result of not avoiding his guilt all the time, now he's doing it to avoid the potential crumble that's to come. if he sleeps, he doesn't have to think about heung soo leaving him, or kicking him out; he doesn't have to think about the notion of being completely alone. so without another word, he's turning away and totally ready to try and fall back asleep. it pisses him off that heung soo's being this way, but he doesn't have the courage or the energy to argue it much more.]
because bastards...
[it does matter, because nam soon really has no idea why he'd be getting so angry about spam. things have definitely been weird and uncomfortable between them since the blackout—he knows exactly why that is...
...and he's quick to avoid the subject too, because he still isn't really sure what he makes of it. the air between them has been uncomfortable ever since, but this? well, it's uncharacteristically angry, even for heung soo. he isn't sure he wants to deal with it.
or maybe he just doesn't know how to. the truth is that the tension that remains is scary to him... he feels as if he's walking on eggshells and that things have become so fragile that whatever remained of their newly rekindled friendship could shatter in an instant. that? somehow, that's scarier than anything else they've been through up to this point. what happened... it's not easy to forget, not for either of them and it puts them in such a precarious position that he just feels himself shutting down every time he has to think about it. ...it's easier not to.
which is exactly why he's taken to sleeping even more; just when he'd started to get into a habit of doing so less as a result of not avoiding his guilt all the time, now he's doing it to avoid the potential crumble that's to come. if he sleeps, he doesn't have to think about heung soo leaving him, or kicking him out; he doesn't have to think about the notion of being completely alone. so without another word, he's turning away and totally ready to try and fall back asleep. it pisses him off that heung soo's being this way, but he doesn't have the courage or the energy to argue it much more.]