[ He stays quiet for a bit. Mostly to let the full impact of the words sink in with the other guy. Because it's true - he does mean a lot more with those words than they might imply at first glance, but they've always been good at understanding each other without saying to say a whole lot.
He's not going anywhere, he's not leaving Nam Soon like he was probably fearing.. there's no way he could do that to begin with. Even though he had been a little more functioning than the other guy in the years they were apart, he was still a mess compared to before. He only bothered graduating middle school and moving onto high school since he couldn't let down his family - but very quickly, his family turned into just his sister, and then the anger and bitterness and frustration just kept growing until he ironically enough was the one who got into trouble with the police.
Just because he couldn't deal with the hole that bastard left behind.
So leaving is not even an option right now. Sure, they have even more to work through now than before, but.. they'll find a way. Somehow. Because Heung Soo can't accept any other alternative for himself. He can't imagine himself in a future where he isn't still hanging out with Nam Soon.
It's more scary than anything else to him, too.
Honestly, he's not as prone to crying.. but it always happens like this. Nam Soon starts making that sort of face, the tears start to spill, and that's always when Heung Soo starts feeling his eyes get a little bit wet as well despite everything.
When Nam Soon says his name like that, Heung Soo glances off to the side for a moment, sucking in a breath with a sniff and moving his hand up to rub at the corners of his eyes, as if he's trying to get rid of his own tears before they fall as well. Seriously, this bastard, always reducing him to this..
After another breath, he dares to assume his voice is steady enough to at least speak up. ]
Don't act like it's such a big deal. I promised a long time ago.
[ Not so directly, but.. it's what that promise meant to him, so it might help get rid of some of Nam Soon's fears to actually hear that out loud.
They're always going to be like this. Even when weird shit happens in this place that he too doesn't know how to sort out easily.. they'll always be like this. ]
So.. stop worrying so much, Nam Soon-ah.
[ Isn't that supposed to be his job, you dumb bastard? ]
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He's not going anywhere, he's not leaving Nam Soon like he was probably fearing.. there's no way he could do that to begin with. Even though he had been a little more functioning than the other guy in the years they were apart, he was still a mess compared to before. He only bothered graduating middle school and moving onto high school since he couldn't let down his family - but very quickly, his family turned into just his sister, and then the anger and bitterness and frustration just kept growing until he ironically enough was the one who got into trouble with the police.
Just because he couldn't deal with the hole that bastard left behind.
So leaving is not even an option right now. Sure, they have even more to work through now than before, but.. they'll find a way. Somehow. Because Heung Soo can't accept any other alternative for himself. He can't imagine himself in a future where he isn't still hanging out with Nam Soon.
It's more scary than anything else to him, too.
Honestly, he's not as prone to crying.. but it always happens like this. Nam Soon starts making that sort of face, the tears start to spill, and that's always when Heung Soo starts feeling his eyes get a little bit wet as well despite everything.
When Nam Soon says his name like that, Heung Soo glances off to the side for a moment, sucking in a breath with a sniff and moving his hand up to rub at the corners of his eyes, as if he's trying to get rid of his own tears before they fall as well. Seriously, this bastard, always reducing him to this..
After another breath, he dares to assume his voice is steady enough to at least speak up. ]
Don't act like it's such a big deal. I promised a long time ago.
[ Not so directly, but.. it's what that promise meant to him, so it might help get rid of some of Nam Soon's fears to actually hear that out loud.
They're always going to be like this. Even when weird shit happens in this place that he too doesn't know how to sort out easily.. they'll always be like this. ]
So.. stop worrying so much, Nam Soon-ah.
[ Isn't that supposed to be his job, you dumb bastard? ]