[ At least he doesn't really blame Nam Soon for looking away.. despite both of them not regretting what happened, it's still a little embarrassing, after all. Especially to talk about and put into words afterwards, so there's something actually a little easier about not directly having to face each other with their gazes.
Heung Soo shifts just a little bit.
Nam Soon says he can't throw him away. It was a little bit obvious on a more general friendship level before - even when Heung Soo transferred and wanted nothing to do with this new Nam Soon who seemed nothing like his best friend, Nam Soon always persued him, bought him books, gave him lunch, did just about anything to try and reconcile things, no matter how many times Heung Soo rejected it or pushed back. Back then, he had been the one throwing it away. Although it had felt like Nam Soon was the first one to throw it away to begin with - three years ago, when he walked away from the hospital. When he wasn't in his house anymore by the time Heung Soo got discharged. It kept lingering in the back of his mind, and after they slowly did start reconciling.. well, it always stayed in the back of his mind. The fear that no matter how close they got once more, something like that could happen again. Nam Soon could walk away again.
And he almost did over this - not physically, but.. avoiding him like that, sleeping so much, being so quiet, it felt like it.
But when he's saying these words now, it's almost like the Nam Soon from back then is turning around and walking into the hospital after all.
The past can't be changed, but their present.. there's nothing that could put Heung Soo's heart at ease more than those words.
They both don't regret what happened, they don't want to stop being friends over it - and they don't even really want to lose what happened, on top of it. They feel the same, that's for sure now, so at least there's nothing to be scared about anymore.
Heung Soo picks up the CereVice he dropped on the ground earlier, turning it over in his hands, a small almost-smile appearing on his face at the sheer relief he's feeling. That's right, what did that stupid spam matter - Nam Soon was and is the most important person to him, and he's the most important person to Nam Soon. And if this is not going to change that, then nothing is. ]
Then stop being so worried.
[ Sure, they may not entirely know how to go from here yet, or how to deal with any of this.. but their worst fear about is has been taken away, so it's somethng they'll figure out as they go along. They've always been a lot better at that rather than pre-planning things or talking it out fully. ]
.. We'll figure it out. [ They have enough issues already, anyway.. not knowing how to deal with wanting to kiss your bastard best friend or how to go about doing so can just be something to slowly figure out too. Somehow. It's not like this is some sort of sappy kdrama love line. ]
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Heung Soo shifts just a little bit.
Nam Soon says he can't throw him away. It was a little bit obvious on a more general friendship level before - even when Heung Soo transferred and wanted nothing to do with this new Nam Soon who seemed nothing like his best friend, Nam Soon always persued him, bought him books, gave him lunch, did just about anything to try and reconcile things, no matter how many times Heung Soo rejected it or pushed back. Back then, he had been the one throwing it away. Although it had felt like Nam Soon was the first one to throw it away to begin with - three years ago, when he walked away from the hospital. When he wasn't in his house anymore by the time Heung Soo got discharged. It kept lingering in the back of his mind, and after they slowly did start reconciling.. well, it always stayed in the back of his mind. The fear that no matter how close they got once more, something like that could happen again. Nam Soon could walk away again.
And he almost did over this - not physically, but.. avoiding him like that, sleeping so much, being so quiet, it felt like it.
But when he's saying these words now, it's almost like the Nam Soon from back then is turning around and walking into the hospital after all.
The past can't be changed, but their present.. there's nothing that could put Heung Soo's heart at ease more than those words.
They both don't regret what happened, they don't want to stop being friends over it - and they don't even really want to lose what happened, on top of it. They feel the same, that's for sure now, so at least there's nothing to be scared about anymore.
Heung Soo picks up the CereVice he dropped on the ground earlier, turning it over in his hands, a small almost-smile appearing on his face at the sheer relief he's feeling. That's right, what did that stupid spam matter - Nam Soon was and is the most important person to him, and he's the most important person to Nam Soon. And if this is not going to change that, then nothing is. ]
Then stop being so worried.
[ Sure, they may not entirely know how to go from here yet, or how to deal with any of this.. but their worst fear about is has been taken away, so it's somethng they'll figure out as they go along. They've always been a lot better at that rather than pre-planning things or talking it out fully. ]
.. We'll figure it out. [ They have enough issues already, anyway.. not knowing how to deal with wanting to kiss your bastard best friend or how to go about doing so can just be something to slowly figure out too. Somehow. It's not like this is some sort of sappy kdrama love line. ]