[ At least this way it's obvious. Not that it wasn't already - Heung Soo knows Nam Soon well enough to, this time without misunderstandings, know what's going through his mind. Of course Nam Soon was using all the sleeping as a way to avoid him the easiest without making things even more awkward than they already were. Of course Nam Soon was just as confused and awkward about this as he is.
But he does know one thing. Or two, rather. He knows that he himself liked it and that's exactly what makes the whole deal so confusing and awkward for him to begin with. But even though he wasn't sure if Nam Soon felt the way about it, he knows now. It's pretty simple, but it's mostly since he knows his best friend so well that he can tell just why he must be feeling the same.
It's since he's not apologizing. Heung Soo can see the other guy is blaming himself, but even so, he's not apologizing. Not the way he did back when they reunited and Nam Soon was following him around like some lapdog and it annoyed him to hell and back since he misunderstood it.. so in that case, even though he must be regretting part of it (that it even happened, that it got so awkward between them, just like Heung Soo is doing) he must not have disliked the entire experience either.
It eases his heart a little bit. Not that it makes it easy in any form to approach any part of the topic, but at least he knows it means it's not something that will drive them apart completely once more. It'll still be them, so it's alright. They just have to find a way to tackle the awkwardness, as hard as it is.
.. And honestly, maybe it was a mistake to ask Nam Soon to face him, because it's even harder to say this when the other is directly looking at him. But Heung Soo doesn't want to turn around and be the avoidant one now, so instead he just sucks in a deep breath (trying to shake off the emotions) before glancing at the floor with a frown. ]
Yeah. Stop avoiding me. [ That's what he already said, but what he means to say is-- ] ... I'm not going anywhere either.
[ They won't lose their bond, that's what he wants to believe in - that's the part that's more important than anything else. ]
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But he does know one thing. Or two, rather. He knows that he himself liked it and that's exactly what makes the whole deal so confusing and awkward for him to begin with. But even though he wasn't sure if Nam Soon felt the way about it, he knows now. It's pretty simple, but it's mostly since he knows his best friend so well that he can tell just why he must be feeling the same.
It's since he's not apologizing. Heung Soo can see the other guy is blaming himself, but even so, he's not apologizing. Not the way he did back when they reunited and Nam Soon was following him around like some lapdog and it annoyed him to hell and back since he misunderstood it.. so in that case, even though he must be regretting part of it (that it even happened, that it got so awkward between them, just like Heung Soo is doing) he must not have disliked the entire experience either.
It eases his heart a little bit. Not that it makes it easy in any form to approach any part of the topic, but at least he knows it means it's not something that will drive them apart completely once more. It'll still be them, so it's alright. They just have to find a way to tackle the awkwardness, as hard as it is.
.. And honestly, maybe it was a mistake to ask Nam Soon to face him, because it's even harder to say this when the other is directly looking at him. But Heung Soo doesn't want to turn around and be the avoidant one now, so instead he just sucks in a deep breath (trying to shake off the emotions) before glancing at the floor with a frown. ]
Yeah. Stop avoiding me. [ That's what he already said, but what he means to say is-- ] ... I'm not going anywhere either.
[ They won't lose their bond, that's what he wants to believe in - that's the part that's more important than anything else. ]