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Shh— [it's kind of just a half-"aish" as he grits his teeth and sucks in a breath before releasing his ear to actually catch the cerevice.

of course, this reveals how red his ears really are, and it's been quite a while since they've looked that way. it's not often he gets really embarrassed; nam soon is good at shrugging things off even in the worst situation. the only other recent times that could compare were masked by the cold weather (thankfully), but when being left with the choice of keeping that position or getting hit with a glorified smartphone...

well, it's pretty obvious what he picks. with the cerevice now in his possession, nam soon opens up the messages, going quiet as he looks it over. it's short lived as he tosses the device to the side, sighing.]

What kind of dumb bastard gets so annoyed about that kind of spam? Aigoo, it's like you've never gotten an email before or something. [he chides, because that's what he does.

leave it to these two idiots to go right back to acting as they always have despite the circumstances and the weird, embarrassing things they're still in the middle of trying to figure out.]

Who am I usually supposed to get emails from, you bastard?

[ It's not like he had.. friends... the whole 3 years they were separated, after all. Not even his soccer team mates, since he honestly just didn't want to have to do anything at all anymore with the sport.. at best the people who contacted him were only the school for messages related to that and his older sister.

(Not that it means he doesn't know what spam is, he's just trying to avoid answering that question he can't word an answer to like this. Sure, that really was like one of those spam emails advertising porn or dating sites, but.. aish.

Falling in their usual routine just feels a lot easier.) ]

At least I'm not the one here sitting with ears that look like it's freezing. [ YES, HE CAUGHT ON.. and he - of all people - knows very well what it means, so if he has to mask his own embarrassment with Nam Soon's, then he'll gladly do so as an escape. ]

[that initial response is enough for nam soon to roll his eyes at, because seriously, way to avoid the answering the question, you stubborn bastard. not that heung soo isn't right in some way, and it's not like nam soon isn't aware by now that his best friend had been alone for all the time.

of course, it's pretty short-lived once heung soo calls out his red ears. that's a low blow and rude as hell! don't call him out on how embarrassed he is about this whole situation. so rather than a real verbal response, nam soon is muttering something incoherent under his breath before picking up a pillow and unceremoniously tossing it at heung soo's head.

bastard.]

[ See, this is much better. Even if it's as dumb of a gesture as throwing a pillow like that.. it feels like the tension between the two of them from a moment ago has cleared up. Sure, there's still some awkward stuff about the incident that they haven't really fully breached, but.. they accepted the core of it, and that means they're alright enough again to no longer be avoiding each other and instead mess around like usually.

That's well worth a pillow to the head, and Heung Soo makes no real movement to try and dodge it anyway - instead he just laughs. A little bit, sure, but it's a real laugh. Whether it's out of sheer relief that they managed to get past this roadblock or because Nam Soon's embarrassment is so funny - who knows. But his chest feels strangely light with this weight lifted off it, and he's already picking up the pillow and actually getting up in order to be able to walk over to Nam Soon and twap him over the head with it as well.

It's not often that he gets the upper hand in teasing, okay, let him enjoy this moment of victory. At least he seems happy, that's already more than most of the usual expressions that can be found on his face.. ]

[this sort of thing is what nam soon wants and needs most. it's buried in comfortable feelings—things that are distinctly them and unchanging, no matter how much time passes. whether they were 8 or 13, or coming up on 20, they could throw pillows and roughhouse and it would always be the same.

after all that's happened, both today and in the last few days, he needs this more than anything else. and it's obvious that heung soo does too, because he's smiling now. he looks happy, and that makes nam soon feel nothing but relief. good... good, they could still be this way with each other, despite the things that keep standing in their way. nam soon can put up with a little embarrassment if it's for that cause.

which he will, because his ears only get more red when he realizes how much he enjoys seeing heung soo happy. his best friend has had a lot of hardships, and nam soon knows many of them were his fault, so it's hard not to feel this way when he can smile that way. yeah, his ears are red and he's ill-prepared for being hit with a pillow.

....which leads to flailing limbs at a reaction.] Yah!

[he already gets the victory of knowing how embarrassed nam soon is right now, does he have to rub it in with a pillow victory too? he's going to have to make a grab for the pillow to fight back, in that case.]

[ Okay, now that reaction is even more amusing. And it feels so stupidly familiar, so stupidly nostalgic.. the past few years even the sweetest of memories had turned painful and bitter, but now he can't help but only think of them fondly, even though it distracts him for just a moment enough for Nam Soon to be able to grab a hold of the pillow.

Well, not like it matters. He had his momentary pillow victory here, okay, that's good enough for him to get the other to flail like that.

In fact, Heung Soo even lets go of the thing, as if he's trying to say-- ]

Aigoo, what's wrong? Did I find a weakness after all? [ -- hit him with your best shot, really.

Not like he doesn't know every single one of Nam Soon's weak spots anyway to begin with, but whatever.. this works just fine for teasing the other, and it shows very well from his expression that it's exactly what he's trying to do. It's not like he can do anything else with the strange light feeling that suddenly spread through him other than to channel his relief into something like this. ]

Should you really be baiting me with weakness, you dumb punk?

[with things out in the open, as awkward as some of it is... well, it's a little easier to joke around about some things. like the fact that not only did nam soon known most of his weaknesses already, but now there's an extra upperhand that he's got.

...even if he's not really ready or willing to go that far yet. and even if heung soo could easily retaliate with the very same thing. ...this probably wasn't a very well-thought plan. leave it to nam soon to get flustered enough by heung soo to lose his head about that. there's only one other option here:

tsunami-swinging a pillow right at heung soo's head to distract him.]

[ Now that is a low blow. So low that it totally distracts Heung Soo in the middle of it all. Because of course he remembers everything that happened back there vividly. Neither of them may have been in teir right minds at that moment, but the memory still lingers.. and that memory is enough to make his eyes widen for a moment and make his cheeks flush, remembering that exact moment he woke up still exposed, remembering just how badly he had wanted Nam Soon to do all that to him...

.. god, it's more embarrassing than anything, despite him having been honest about the fact that he doesn't regret any of it. He doesn't regret it, but that part is definitely hard to fully accept and hear this bastard tease him about yet..

So while he's distracted by his own embarrassment, he's hit square by the pillow, enough to even slightly knock him off balance and onto his ass. ]

Aish, this bastard..! [ DON'T TEASE HIM BY MAKING HIM THINK ABOUT HOW MUCH HE WANTED THAT STUFF, IT'S THE WORST.. he doesn't even dare to move to tackle Nam Soon to the ground since he already knows for sure what memories are going to surface then. So instead he just makes a motion like he's going to flick the other straight onto the forehead, only stopping and not actually doing it at the last moment. It's so obvious that he's embarrassed, it's written all over his face. ]

[it really is a low blow, especially considering nam soon himself is still pretty embarrassed about everything that happened. there are definitely some things that are a little hazy, but there's also plenty he remembers with such stunning clarity that it's been flashing through his mind in loops since they woke up from that encounter.

really, it's a large part of why he'd been sleeping so much. not only was he avoiding dealing with the situation itself, but trying to shove aside every memory of them rolling on the floor, of limbs intertwined and exposed skin that longed for touches. they're all difficult for him to get out of his mind, especially when he was holding onto his fears of their friendships being broken. even now, as that imagery creeps back into his mind, he can feel his ears getting hot again.

but he's willing to ignore it, because he can plainly see that heung soo is embarrassed now too. consider that payback for taking advantage of nam soon's earlier.]

Aigoo, aigoo, aigoo.... someone's embarrassed. [they happen much more infrequently these days, but there are definitely times when nam soon's truly asshole side can come out to play. at least in this case, it's pretty harmless.]

[ Definite asshole.

Because it doesn't even matter anymore that he can tell that Nam Soon is just as embarrassed because of how red his ears are - although seriously, is he really willing to shoot himself in the foot that much with all of this just for the sake of teasing him? - because Heung Soo is really beyond embarrassed right now. Being teased over other stuff is one thing, but this? This is something else entirely, especially when the thoughts of both of them rolling across the floor and desperately touching and kissing each other haven't left his mind yet at all. Or more importantly - everything beyond that. Or everything that almost went beyond that, that he can't file away as neatly (although calling it "neatly" would be a wild exaggeration) as the kissing.

So instead he just punches the other - or.. well, not entirely. He's punching the pillow that Nam Soon is holding, which should cushion most of the blow for his body, making it not all that bad in the end. And Heung Soo just drops himself to sit on the floor next to the other, a completely embarrassed frown on his face. ]

Anyone'd be embarrassed to do that sort of stuff with you, you punk. [ AS IF THAT'S REALLY THE PROBLEM HERE.. but if he can say this stuff out loud instead considering it's easier, then he will. ]

Yah...

[while heung soo punches at the pillow, he readjusts to hold it more like a shield. of course, he's really not trying all that hard to shield. even if heung soo punch at his hardest, nam soon wouldn't hold it against him—his teasing was a low blow.

he's still pretty embarrassed even as heung soo sits next to him... maybe even more so. but nam soon shakes his shoulders a few times like a little kid before bumping one of them into heung soo's. it's silly and childish, but a perfect showing of the fact that he's completely embarrassed by this topic of conversation. even if he's also kind of okay with it at the same time. it's going to take a while to settle into these feelings, to sort out what it does and doesn't change. nam soon's glad that he's not losing anything. there's only things to gain from it, even if he's not quite sure what that is yet.]

They would for you, too. [honestly, nobody would even be interested in these sorts of things with either of them. if only they knew that their own classmates had been passing notes saying they should date. they know. everyone knows. apparently, they were the last to know.] I guess I have to be stuck with an embarrassing bastard like you.

[you, who was the first to say that what they did wasn't bad. you, who calls it "that kind of stuff," which is more than nam soon can verbally admit right now. it's so much easier if they don't have to put this crap into words, really.

his ears are going ti be red forever, at this rate.]

[ He frowns a little at that, but it's more embarrassment than real anger or annoyance - Nam Soon probably knows, considering he's seen real anger from Heung Soo plenty before. ]

How am I the embarrassing bastard here? [ Excuse you, mister bumping into him like a five year old, mister who initiated the whole thing, mister who was--

No, he's not even going to think of that right now or he's only going to get more and more embarrassed. It's probably better to steer the topic away entirely before he just gets an embarrassing answer he never wanted to that question. ]

I think I liked you better when you were sleeping.

You were the one who told me to stop sleeping. Make up your mind, Heung Soo-yah.

[he pointedly doesn't point out how heung soo is embarrassing, mostly because then he'd have to bring up the specifically embarrassing points. it would only serve to keep this hideous cycle going, which... doesn't seem very wise.

instead, he smirks a little at heung soo, knowing his snappy response will probably piss the other guy off a bit. especially since he's going to use this time to stretch his arms out over his head before leaning back until he's laying flat.

this is the bastard you've chosen to spend your life with, heung soo.]

[ Sometimes he really questions the life choices he makes.

Although it's never for long, honestly.. as much as the other is an embarrassing bastard who teases on purpose on top of it a lot of the time, it's not like he could ever really actively dislike or hate Nam Soon. The guy just has to whine a little bit in his direction or flash one of those smiles at him that at first were just really, really weird (when you're used to Tsunami, anyway) at first but then turned out strangely cute - and then Heung Soo already can't find it within his power anymore to actually be mad at the other.

Which is why he's - still slightly annoyed because he's so flustered - shoving Nam Soon to the side a little bit before he moves to lie flat on his back next to him.

Staring at the ceiling is a hell of a lot less embarrassing than staring at that smirk. ]

If you're not going to sleep, then I will. [ He's practically the personification of the "B(" emote at this point.. ]

[his natural aegyo is real. ~~and can't be controlled because a certain jongsukkie can't control that shit~~]

We could both sleep. [really, that seems like the best solution to him. even if nam soon feels less tired now than he has in days, he thinks napping now may actually be restful. forcing himself to sleep as a means of avoiding everything didn't mean he slept well at all.

he doesn't really know how heung soo's been sleeping either, since he's largely avoided even being in the same room. maybe he's not admitting it out loud, but that worries him too, just like any potentially harmful thing for heung soo does with him.]

Let's get ramen after that. [like, go out and eat ramen at a restaurant instead of making it themselves. it would be a good way to commemorate overcoming a hurdle that's affecting them both—and maybe his appetite is coming back to him now as the weight of their unsure circumstance melts away. nam soon already expects an exasperated response, but it doesn't stop him from turning on his side and looking at his friend with a cheesy grin.

like he does every time. nam soon's nothing if not predictable in situations like these; it's just one of the many ways that he never really grew up. it's playful and fun and childlike—and a side of him that only heung soo is ever allowed to see. if only others knew what an aegyo bastard he could be, right?]

[ It sure is a side that only Heung Soo gets to see, and it sure is a side that Heung Soo has no idea how to handle as well, let's be real here. Even when the other was being Tsunami, it was exactly in the moments that the two of them were alone at Heung Soo's place or Nam Soon's place that the other always seemed a little more genuinely happy instead of just smug.. it was at those moments that a slightly more child-like side to Nam Soon came out, something that suited a little bit more for a guy in his early teenage years than the whole Tsunami behaviour did. A side that Heung Soo also very well realises most other people never got to see, if anyone at all.. there's something happy about it, knowing that he can at least act that true to himself and that casually around him, but on the other hand..

.. well, does he have to say it? It's embarrassing as hell, being faced with this aegyo bastard, and it flusters him for more reasons than one, although there's no way in hell he's going to admit that. Even if you'd break his other leg too.

So instead of properly answering, Heung Soo just stares for a long moment out of the corner of his eye to Nam Soon's puppy-like happy smile, lets out a long breath, and..

Then he rolls over onto his side, his back towards the other guy, his tone curt. ]

Sleep well.

[ Not like he means it badly, at least, he's just terrible at dealing with stuff like this, so his default reaction is to just shut it down right away. ~~Don't pull that aegyo out on him when they were so close to dick touching only a few days ago, god.~~ ]

Edited 2014-12-30 21:16 (UTC)

Mm...

[it doesn't really need to be any more than that, really. nam soon knows that this is just how heung soo is, and how he deals with situations like this. everything is still so touch and go—even if they've largely solved the larger conflict at hand, there are still plenty of things to clear up.

those things can wait though, and nam soon doesn't take even the slightest offense to the way heung soo turns his back. if anything, it makes his smile shift to something softer and more endeared, more genuine than put on, more grownup than childlike. it's a lot easier to do that when nobody is looking. instead of turning on his side in either direction, he remains on his back, gaze fixed on the ceiling for a moment before he lets his eyes fall shut. yeah, he can definitely sleep a little easier this way.]

Sleep well, Heung Soo-yah.

[ There's a few moments of nothing, as if Heung Soo wants to make sure the other really did fall asleep before he does anything else. But then after that when he doesn't hear anymore sounds, Heung Soo slowly turns his head back to look at Nam Soon - and that's when he sees him lying there with his eyes closed and that soft smile on his face.

(Not that he was worried he really was too rude in his tsun for a moment - not at all, geez, why would anyone think that.)

But Nam Soon looks just fine, he looks happy.. so then it's all fine. Even if there's still some parts of this left to figure out that are too embarrassing to even talk about, it's fine like this. Even with what happened.. they're still them through it all.

And that's what is important.

He scoots just a little bit closer to the other, still lying on his side, before he closes his eyes to sleep as well. ]

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